Didn't happen - 27.12.2020

The last straw didn't happen.

You did not wake up on time and you told me you had diarrhoea as soon as you woke up. But I don't know what to believe anymore. My gut feelings know that it was just an excuse for you to not go out with me but i refuse to make a fuss out of it cause.. im tired of you and whatever you have been doing to me. 

You know buddy, i dont even know what i'm staying for anymore. What do u want from me? I dont get responds from you. I don even get the love i deserve from you. Nothing. What am I staying for? Im tired buddy. Im really tired. It has been an exhausting 7 months filled with tears cause i dont think you made me happy. 

Maybe i wasnt bersyukur. But ive find too many reason to bersyukur for but at the end of the day you cover it all up bit by bit on your own. Every little thing i hold on to, you let it go. And now i couldnt find anything to hold on to anymore.