Okay. Time for some shit blogging about my life. Shits been running my life this semester. Damn shitty. Idk why but why can't my year 2 be better than my year 1? Like seriously. Come on ah. Things happen. Shit happens. But oh gosh. Well let's see. I do have a few things to talk about. Work. School. MFBML. MrWarm. Now let's do this one by one. Hais. My life is so screwed man. Let's talk about work first shall we. Hais.
Work Work Work. Sometimes i do not understand my mum's words. Full of contradictions. One moment she'd be threatening me to stop working. Another moment she'd go "When we're still young it's good to work" contradiction much uh? Okay so, Workplace has been the best thing that has ever happen in my life. It has been and still is. It's the only place where i could smile without worries. It's the only place where i could keep my phone in my pocket and just talk and smile and laugh and whatever there is. My favourite would of course be lepak-ing with the dearest TM. Well, they are a good bunch of guys who is full of characteristics that makes me laugh. Whenever i have an upsetting day, i'll just stay a little while after work and hang around with the TM boys and just stay chilled. Some times waiting for AS to let my feelings out. Some times waiting for TummyFats and also letting my feelings out. My two best therapists. And when they are not around there's always Rep, Chap, Kama, Ziq and Mie. Meh. The few boys who i hang around with at work. Oh not forgetting abang kuda. Hah! My number bully. Well all i have to say is, 1 year plus of working at NS makes me happy. But it's sad seeing almost all the CSC crew that i'm closed to are all leaving. Either they found a full time job, getting married or getting their asses into the REAL NS. A lot of those i'm closed too, laughed with, joked with. They've seen me go through shits. Laugh through shits. Sing songs for them. Smiled like a fool when i see mr warm. Well, they've seen a lot about me. We shared stories, food, drinks and a lot of other stuffs. Covered our asses in shit times. Scolded each other when things are rough. Sing together when things are good. Man, i'm gonna miss you all. Some of those leaving, i was there on their first OJT. Like Shep. Man, you've grown dude :') Now it's time for you to go into the REAL NS. Oh man. Grown up kid :") You used to be so young and naive! (HAH! I'm talking as if you've aged for another 50 years) I'm gonna miss a lot of people. Even though well yeah, a lot left in my 1 year ++ of working there, but this month has the most number of people leaving. Well, they all leave for a good cause in life. And not because our workplace is not a good place. Hais.
School. I don't know why but i seem to be tied up with school work A LOT. Maybe because this semester there's a lot of designing and editing to do so yeah. Things are a little tight. Bleahs. I guess this semester my schedule is kind of virgin. Because i could see that it's very tight to the extend that UT's and work schedule clashes and i'm rushing from one place to another being late like everywhere anywhere. I think i couldn't catch up with Singapore's pace ever since i came back from Thailand. I seriously think so. I've been late and taking my own sweet time for like idk how many weeks after my Thailand trip. Thai trip may have been like over a month + ago. But yeah, the timings. Hais. Plus rushes, events, Studio. Man, things are getting out of my hands.
Now, MFBML. Idk what to say man. You make me smile, treat me right. You made me sad, you neglect. Your made me mad, you made me cry. You made me laugh, you made me try. Man, idk man. It breaks my heart a lot of times. But i'm still staying. I wanted to leave a lot of times, but i'm still staying. I wanted to hug you a lot of times, but i have to back off. I wanted to hold on to you too many at a times, but you pushed me away. You leave me hanging. You think it's right. You know it's wrong but you never did anything to make things right. But i'm afraid you'd throw me out. Cause i know that could happen some times. I know shit happens. And i'm waiting for it to happen. It happens all the time now. We fight. We argued. We cried. We laugh. We smile. Why. I don't know. It's just a rocky journey with you. I don't why. Ignore my words when i'm mad. It may be the truth, but i would never want you to be hurt with it. Because i still need you right here by my side. That's why i'm always forgiving you. But please, don't take my forgiveness for granted.
MrWarm, you still visit me in my dreams some times and gave me warmth. You made me smile in times of bad. And i'm glad you didn't hate me even after knowing about my feelings for you. MrWarm, thank you for being nice. Even though things are now awkward between us, i hope one day you'd be back. I miss those times you'd fight with me. I miss those days where you'd want to kick me even though you did not. I miss a lot of our memories. Please come back some day. We are the only ones left at work. And you are one of the reasons why NS was a good place for me. Please be back soon. Please.
Work Work Work. Sometimes i do not understand my mum's words. Full of contradictions. One moment she'd be threatening me to stop working. Another moment she'd go "When we're still young it's good to work" contradiction much uh? Okay so, Workplace has been the best thing that has ever happen in my life. It has been and still is. It's the only place where i could smile without worries. It's the only place where i could keep my phone in my pocket and just talk and smile and laugh and whatever there is. My favourite would of course be lepak-ing with the dearest TM. Well, they are a good bunch of guys who is full of characteristics that makes me laugh. Whenever i have an upsetting day, i'll just stay a little while after work and hang around with the TM boys and just stay chilled. Some times waiting for AS to let my feelings out. Some times waiting for TummyFats and also letting my feelings out. My two best therapists. And when they are not around there's always Rep, Chap, Kama, Ziq and Mie. Meh. The few boys who i hang around with at work. Oh not forgetting abang kuda. Hah! My number bully. Well all i have to say is, 1 year plus of working at NS makes me happy. But it's sad seeing almost all the CSC crew that i'm closed to are all leaving. Either they found a full time job, getting married or getting their asses into the REAL NS. A lot of those i'm closed too, laughed with, joked with. They've seen me go through shits. Laugh through shits. Sing songs for them. Smiled like a fool when i see mr warm. Well, they've seen a lot about me. We shared stories, food, drinks and a lot of other stuffs. Covered our asses in shit times. Scolded each other when things are rough. Sing together when things are good. Man, i'm gonna miss you all. Some of those leaving, i was there on their first OJT. Like Shep. Man, you've grown dude :') Now it's time for you to go into the REAL NS. Oh man. Grown up kid :") You used to be so young and naive! (HAH! I'm talking as if you've aged for another 50 years) I'm gonna miss a lot of people. Even though well yeah, a lot left in my 1 year ++ of working there, but this month has the most number of people leaving. Well, they all leave for a good cause in life. And not because our workplace is not a good place. Hais.
School. I don't know why but i seem to be tied up with school work A LOT. Maybe because this semester there's a lot of designing and editing to do so yeah. Things are a little tight. Bleahs. I guess this semester my schedule is kind of virgin. Because i could see that it's very tight to the extend that UT's and work schedule clashes and i'm rushing from one place to another being late like everywhere anywhere. I think i couldn't catch up with Singapore's pace ever since i came back from Thailand. I seriously think so. I've been late and taking my own sweet time for like idk how many weeks after my Thailand trip. Thai trip may have been like over a month + ago. But yeah, the timings. Hais. Plus rushes, events, Studio. Man, things are getting out of my hands.
Now, MFBML. Idk what to say man. You make me smile, treat me right. You made me sad, you neglect. Your made me mad, you made me cry. You made me laugh, you made me try. Man, idk man. It breaks my heart a lot of times. But i'm still staying. I wanted to leave a lot of times, but i'm still staying. I wanted to hug you a lot of times, but i have to back off. I wanted to hold on to you too many at a times, but you pushed me away. You leave me hanging. You think it's right. You know it's wrong but you never did anything to make things right. But i'm afraid you'd throw me out. Cause i know that could happen some times. I know shit happens. And i'm waiting for it to happen. It happens all the time now. We fight. We argued. We cried. We laugh. We smile. Why. I don't know. It's just a rocky journey with you. I don't why. Ignore my words when i'm mad. It may be the truth, but i would never want you to be hurt with it. Because i still need you right here by my side. That's why i'm always forgiving you. But please, don't take my forgiveness for granted.
MrWarm, you still visit me in my dreams some times and gave me warmth. You made me smile in times of bad. And i'm glad you didn't hate me even after knowing about my feelings for you. MrWarm, thank you for being nice. Even though things are now awkward between us, i hope one day you'd be back. I miss those times you'd fight with me. I miss those days where you'd want to kick me even though you did not. I miss a lot of our memories. Please come back some day. We are the only ones left at work. And you are one of the reasons why NS was a good place for me. Please be back soon. Please.
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