Your safe space. MFBAR.

I wanted to protect you.
I wanted to be your safe space.
I wanted to be your comfort.
But i forgot.
I forgot that protection and comfort goes both ways.
One can only be protected if they want to be protected. One can only find comfort if they want to be comforted. There is no way for me to protect and comfort you when you don't want it. My Nanny McPhee motto doesn't apply to you. Then and now, it has all been the same.

Back in secondary school, i wanted the same. And today, the history repeats itself. I don't know why, I don't understand why. I don't want to know or understand anymore. I've tried and i've done my best for you. And if this is how it ends, let it end. But please MFBAR, please dont come back into my life ever again. Ever. I don't wanna see you or hear from you ever again. If you're happy I pray Allah will let you be happy till eternity. I don't want to hear anything anymore about you. I don't want to find out. I don't need to.

I've always given you my all bila kau sikit pun tak pernah pandang aku. I wanted to protect you i wanted to comfort you i wanted to be your safe space. I wanted to be that person you find peace in. Dulu sekarang dan selamanya. It has never changed. And maybe itu salah aku. Salah aku sebab aku fikir yang aku boleh protect kau. Salah aku sebab aku fikir aku boleh jadi comfort untuk kau. And salah aku sebab aku fikir aku boleh jadi tempat untuk kau rehat dan mengadu.

I thought wrong. I've always thought wrong. And i'm sorry for being wrong. I'm sorry for always trying. I'm sorry for always wanting to do things you didn't want. I'm sorry for being the person nobody wants.