I knew

I knew from the beginning this was all impossible

I knew from the first text there were no emotional attachments

I knew from the start that everything is going to be a lie

I knew from the start that it was too good to be true

I knew from the beginning that we'll never feel the same way

I knew from the beginning that things will change

I knew from the start that I will end up with another heartbreak

I knew from the start I will lose you some day

I knew from the beginning that you will never look at me like I look at you

I knew from the start what is to come

I knew I was not good enough for you

I knew I can never be that girl you want

I knew I can never be that girl you need

I knew I can never be that girl written for you

I knew I'll never ever be able to win your heart

I knew everything to well but and I knew I was holding on to some hope. A hope that maybe someday what I knew would be wrong. A hope that maybe one day what I knew would be something I never knew could be a miracle. A hope that one day everything was fine. A hope that one day you'll look at me more than i've looked at you.

MSBAR, I miss you all the time.
MSBAR, I want you all the time.
MSBAR, despite all that I know about you when I am not supposed to I still want you.
MSBAR, I want you to look at me more than I look at you.
MSBAR, I want to be loved by you.

You are not even close to my dream guy so I don't even know why I want you so much.