What comes after 2022

When i get upset, i start to bite things. On my way to work, i kept bitting onto the plastic parts of my Ribena drink. I'm still upset. But i'm happy. I trying to register in my mind, that we're never meant to be.

I was happy at work. Laugh, talk, did some Que poles exercise. I forget. I forgot I was upset. I forget to remember you. Whenever i get upset, the only way back for me is to be happy. And yes, i forgot you for a moment. I had too many laughters at work that it hurt my tummy and not my heart. It started to heal a little.

But maybe someday, i just hope you realised i've noticed you before. Someday, i hope, you would just look at me. Someday, i hope you would feel what i feel. I'm still praying for your safety for your rides because the way i see your ride it, it could get dangerous. I still want to see you around work. I'm trying to get use to the fact that the bus will no longer stop at that bus stop you always wait at. I'm trying to get use to no longer seeing you in the bus. I'm trying to get use to the lonely bus ride. I'm trying to get use to not thinking of you. Now that i've soul searched. It wasn't all about that dream. It was way before that dream. That dream just reminded me that i have been noticing you for quite sometime. But i was just denying.

Right. So, I wish you all the best with your TP, please ride safely mrWarm. And smile often okay?

Alright. I'll just be here waiting. In case one day you started noticing me, i'll still be here if you want to come into my arms.

With that i'll end with Hairul's original song, Still here. He's got a good voice and good skill in writing this song. But it's sad that he doesn't upload it on Youtube but on Facebook so i can't "promote" it here in my blog. PFFT. But whatever is written in this song, is what i wanted to tell you mrWarm. But nah. Even if i sing it in front of you, you won't realise i'm singing it, FOR YOU. Tried once. You didn't listen. Tried again, you made fun of me. Tried the third time, you just ignored. Yeah mrWarm. I get your signal. So here goes, Still Here by Hairul Azman ;

It's late in the evening thinking bout what i'm doing with my life

Staring at the ceiling hoping for a miracle to come true

Felt so desperate for something more

Didn't see it coming

Over confidence, it blind me, turning into misery

Everything's done went to waste

A thousand time

So here's my story

She stole my heart

And never came back

All that's left were the tears from yesterday

Waiting every moment of my entire life

Looking through the glass of my entire past

Sitting in the corner of the bus talking to myself

Kept hearing voices all around

When there's no one else

Took awhile for me to figure out that you're the reason why i think aloud

Make such a big mistake

So hear my story

She stole my heart it never came back

All that's left were the tears from yesterday

Waiting every moment of my entire life

Looking through the glass of my entire past

Maybe one day we'll find a way to start anew

A wish upon a wishing star

May dreams will come true

All i ask is for you reappear

Till then i'll be waiting here

Here...

Till then i'll be waiting here