Allah sent you to me - 22.02.2021

Okay, to be honest I don't know if Allah sent you to me or sent me to you. I don't know. But all I know now is that i like it this way. I like this new friendship that I have with you Mr Antagonist. 

You opened up to me even when I didn't ask you to knowing how you've hardened your heart, guarded your trust and just lie around broken. But you chose me. You chose to tell me so many things about yourself, your life, who u used to be and what you're up to. I'm grateful and honored. 

What matters is, you're comfortable. You're okay with me having or not having feelings for you. You're okay with me checking on you. You're okay with me knowing your favourite characters, songs and even food. You're okay with me knowing where you live. You're okay with so many things that I never knew you're okay about. 

I want this friendship to last long. Maybe forever. I want to be your comfort. I want to be the cave you run to whenever you are down. Like how I was the first few you chose to call when your grandma passed away. I want to always be chosen by you. Friends. We are. And i'm comfortable that way. But if the future holds for us to be something more, I would be more than happy to run to you with open arms. But those, aren't those wishful thinking?

We both know how much you've hardened your heart and closed all doors for love. So let me just embrace this friendship and you know.. enjoy your company.. i like listening to you talk about your life. I like teasing you. I wish to see you and your smile. But i know you are not ready yet. Because when you are... you will call me out. 

I'll wait, Mr Antagonist. I'll wait for the day you choose to grab tea and red velvet cake with me. Even though I don't fancy red velvet...