MNBMA - 17.12.2020

I don't deserve the shit treatment you are giving me. Honestly. Why are you doing all this to me? If you can't fucking treat me well, then leave. Go find that person who could treat you better than me and that you can treat her better than you. So I too, could find someone who deserves to be love by me and one who is deserving to love me. 

You're a fucking asshole and that is what you are. Beragama tapi adab kemana. Kau cuma hangat hangat taik ayam je. Idk why i let myself love you when I was always so careful about who I really give my heart to. I was until u came along and I gave it to but you fucking treat it like shit. 

Fuck you and fuck off. 

You were nice in the beginning. You were amazing, but days passed and months passed and here we are. Who and what I saw before were just lies. Lies that I wish I knew from the beginning. I wish I saw through you what kind of a shit person you are today. I wish Allah had stopped me from the beginning. I wish someone stopped me from the beginning. I regret giving my heart to you. I regret even being patient with you. You're nasty. You're rude. You're not who u used to be. I don't even know anymore why i'm still here.