"Can we talk another time" - 27.12.2020

I remember how every "Can we talk another time" turns into "Can we not talk about this"

I remember how every "Next time" turns into "No time"

And while you have forgotten about all of it, I never had once. Because every "can we talk another time" topic is what has been killing me inside the most every single time. 

Ya Allah, I don't want him anymore. I don't want him to hurt me anymore. Please help me.