Almost

02/01/2020

THE YEAR 2020 DUDE. People from the past thought that cars will fly, houses will float and everything can be teleported wirelessly. Heh. And then here I am, coming to a sudden realisation that I will be 27 this year. Yo, TWENTY SEVEN. And that age scares me. Because it felt like it was just yesterday that I was telling my 20 years old self that it is fine to be single because I have 7 years to find love. HAHA. Let me just laugh at that. 

I know people say that, don't marry because people of your age is married. I'm not rushing into anything. If I was, I might have already been married to someone right now lol. But no, i'm going at my own pace. But hey.. it's the year 2020, i'm turning 27 this year and it was my targeted marriage age. And here I am realising, that is the only target I wouldn't be able to reach. 

Of course, miracles happen. ALLAH is powerful in a way that you may never know what might come, what HE THE ALMIGHTY might lend to us.

But i'm also thinking now, what IF I will never find love? What IF the people I wanted at my wedding will no longer be around?

You know.. I used to imagine in my teenage years that one day, when the man i'm destined to marry comes to ask for my hand in marriage, my grandparents on my mum's side are there with my parents. But look, my grandad has now passed for a few years.. and it's left with my grandma. I would like for her to be there at my wedding. I want my parents to look great and healthy at my wedding. 

Allah, I hope you hear me. Grant me this gift to be loved and love your creation, witnessed by the people who loved me the most.  If I were given this chance, let them be in good health at my wedding 💕