What goes on at almost 24
What goes on in life at almost 24 for me? Well that is definitely what i'm about to tell you.
At almost 24, I'm here again after months or perhaps a year of not updating this space. This space has been serving me well for when I needed to pen down my thoughts. Most of the time, things that I do not mind people reading I would pen it down in my Twitter. But as much as you expose yourself to the world, there are parts of you that remain silent in you and no one should know about it but Allah. But sometimes despite agreeing to the silent relationship between you and God you know deep down, there are times you just want to write your thoughts somewhere and that's why I'm here.
At almost 24, I've graduated from an Overseas University. Holding on to a Bachelor Degree that I am not even sure if i'll ever use. The decision to pursue this industry ever since I was in Polytechnic, comes from that one dream. That one dream after my prayers to Allah. I asked Allah, what am I to choose? Where should I go? I found the answer. And this industry is the answer. I put my head up, armor myself with motivation and walk through this journey into an industry I never imagined myself to be in. I have dreams of my own ever since I was in Secondary school. Although my dreams were related to the media industry, this journey that I took was never part of the plan. But we all know,
At almost 24, I'm unemployed. Technically I was almost employed but if you do know me, I listen too well to my parents. I was offered two positions at company A. I loved the vibes that company A gave to me. I loved the people from company A who interviewed me and the ones i've talked to. Reason for not turning up to this company? My dad said to look for another job as it was not worth the travel. Right. Okay. I do believe that 'rezeki itu ditangan Allah bukan ditangan manusia'. And so I agreed. Then, I was offered a job at company B. The pay was lower than what was offered at company A but I decided to agree to it as I was getting really tired and bored staying at home. Unfortunately the first training day for me at company B clashes with the training of the competition. And then my dad said, "Forget about company B, focus on your competition." So what did I do? Yeah, you guessed it right. I did not turn up to company B after I told them about the situation. Neither did they get back to me on the matter. So once again I lived up to;
At almost 24, I've experienced studying and living abroad. But what am I doing back here in sunny, humid, filled with grumpy citizens, Singapore? Here's why:
1) No doubt, I'm a family oriented person
2) I can't get used to the lifestyle abroad
3) After the passings of my Grandad, I refuse to miss out on family
4) I came back to be part of the competition
At almost 24, I'm still single. Now not that this matter. Just wanted to put it out. Because maybe it does matter sometimes, just not all the time. I could live without a boyfriend. I could live without getting married (hopefully). But I do want a boyfriend and I do want to get married. I want to achieve Jannah from my marriage. Marriage is a bonus to life. And I want it too.
At almost 24, I'm still questioning life.
At almost 24, I'm here again after months or perhaps a year of not updating this space. This space has been serving me well for when I needed to pen down my thoughts. Most of the time, things that I do not mind people reading I would pen it down in my Twitter. But as much as you expose yourself to the world, there are parts of you that remain silent in you and no one should know about it but Allah. But sometimes despite agreeing to the silent relationship between you and God you know deep down, there are times you just want to write your thoughts somewhere and that's why I'm here.
At almost 24, I've graduated from an Overseas University. Holding on to a Bachelor Degree that I am not even sure if i'll ever use. The decision to pursue this industry ever since I was in Polytechnic, comes from that one dream. That one dream after my prayers to Allah. I asked Allah, what am I to choose? Where should I go? I found the answer. And this industry is the answer. I put my head up, armor myself with motivation and walk through this journey into an industry I never imagined myself to be in. I have dreams of my own ever since I was in Secondary school. Although my dreams were related to the media industry, this journey that I took was never part of the plan. But we all know,
The best of all planners is Allah S.W.TAt almost 24, I entered my first ever competition. I never see myself to have so much courage to be able to take part in a competition as big as this competition. I was glad I did. This competition I took part in is related to one of my childhood dreams. Through this competition I realise that it was just a dream. If I ever were given a chance of such competitions again, I kid you not, I am ready to compete again. The joy lies in learning throughout this competition. It's the burning passion inside of me. But one thing I truly have to take note is my ability to overthink and get my myself intimidating by people who are a lot better than myself. If I were ever to compete in a competition as good as this, I want to be mentally and physically prepared for the challenges that i've gone through and will go through.
At almost 24, I'm unemployed. Technically I was almost employed but if you do know me, I listen too well to my parents. I was offered two positions at company A. I loved the vibes that company A gave to me. I loved the people from company A who interviewed me and the ones i've talked to. Reason for not turning up to this company? My dad said to look for another job as it was not worth the travel. Right. Okay. I do believe that 'rezeki itu ditangan Allah bukan ditangan manusia'. And so I agreed. Then, I was offered a job at company B. The pay was lower than what was offered at company A but I decided to agree to it as I was getting really tired and bored staying at home. Unfortunately the first training day for me at company B clashes with the training of the competition. And then my dad said, "Forget about company B, focus on your competition." So what did I do? Yeah, you guessed it right. I did not turn up to company B after I told them about the situation. Neither did they get back to me on the matter. So once again I lived up to;
Redha, kerana rezeki itu ditangan AllahAt almost 24, I lost my Maternal Grandfather to the Almighty Creator, Allah. It was the last day of university. Last presentation and last class for my whole two years of my life. I gained the joy of finishing what I never thought I would be able to achieve. But I lost what I never thought would leave so soon. In this world, Allah has created for us the good and the bad. Allah also created for us happiness and sadness. Allah also created for us everything in pairs. We are all well aware of the things Allah created. And one of which is us. Allah created us, so we all belong to Allah. HE gave me joy and took away what HE owns.
At almost 24, I've experienced studying and living abroad. But what am I doing back here in sunny, humid, filled with grumpy citizens, Singapore? Here's why:
1) No doubt, I'm a family oriented person
2) I can't get used to the lifestyle abroad
3) After the passings of my Grandad, I refuse to miss out on family
4) I came back to be part of the competition
At almost 24, I'm still single. Now not that this matter. Just wanted to put it out. Because maybe it does matter sometimes, just not all the time. I could live without a boyfriend. I could live without getting married (hopefully). But I do want a boyfriend and I do want to get married. I want to achieve Jannah from my marriage. Marriage is a bonus to life. And I want it too.
At almost 24, I'm still questioning life.
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