Problematic

Masalah orang lain boleh nampak. Tapi masalah aku ni, aku sendiri tak tau lah mcm mana. Malu tau tak kadang ade bapak mcm ni... malu tau kadang bila dia tu pikir ilmu dia tinggi menggunung sedakang ilmu tu tak pernah akan cukup. Why do u have split personalitg dad?! Why do u have to be this way?! Kenapa mesti memalukan?! Why Allah? Why do i have to go through this??? It is so tiring Ya Allah.. i don't even know what to do. Cause i can do nothing. And no one can know about this. And even if they do know about this, there's nothing they could do. In fact, i doubt they could even understand.