Tonight left me speechless. Left me speechless about the people whom i care about most.
I got to know that Azwan is out with a girl. It gave me a mixture of feelings. I couldn't lie to myself that i was upset. Yes i was upset but i was too tired to even be upset or cried. But hey, deep inside i'm also happy for him. He's someone i treasure and to see him happy is the best thing that could ever happen. i would sacrifice anything just to make him happy. But like everyone else say, i want him to be happy because i made him happy. But well, bukan jodoh. And i'll leave the quote " kau dan aku serasi bersama. but we are not made for each other " this quote makes a lot of sense in our friendship. Yes friendship. We know we need the company of each other but we are not made to love each other. Along the way, yes i admit i fell for you, but in the end, it's not something that could be brought forward and carried on with. It stopped at a line called "good friends" and so here i am.
And then at work, i feel kind of useless for not being able to helped Zul. Well yeah, he is Mr Warm. And yeah i used to have a crush on him . But no, being his working partner tonight and not being able to save his ass tonight actually makes me feel extremely guilty. It's like i understand the feeling of being so lost especially when you know your stamps are missing. My gosh.. and not being able to help him, makes me feel a lot useless and i pitied him. I'm sorry Zul.. I really am my friend.
Then tonight, Asyraf look totally messed up. Sometimes i just want to ask him if he is fine and if he is alright. But i do know that all those are useless. He'll use sarcasm and he'll never open up to anyone. Like mum said, he's someone full of secrets and yes, he's not someone who would expose himself to anyone.
I had a closer look at Hakim today, and yeap, i do not find him attractive at all. Is this weird or is this just me ? LOL .
I got to know that Azwan is out with a girl. It gave me a mixture of feelings. I couldn't lie to myself that i was upset. Yes i was upset but i was too tired to even be upset or cried. But hey, deep inside i'm also happy for him. He's someone i treasure and to see him happy is the best thing that could ever happen. i would sacrifice anything just to make him happy. But like everyone else say, i want him to be happy because i made him happy. But well, bukan jodoh. And i'll leave the quote " kau dan aku serasi bersama. but we are not made for each other " this quote makes a lot of sense in our friendship. Yes friendship. We know we need the company of each other but we are not made to love each other. Along the way, yes i admit i fell for you, but in the end, it's not something that could be brought forward and carried on with. It stopped at a line called "good friends" and so here i am.
" Kau dan aku, kita serasi bersama. But we are not made for each other. "
Then tonight, Asyraf look totally messed up. Sometimes i just want to ask him if he is fine and if he is alright. But i do know that all those are useless. He'll use sarcasm and he'll never open up to anyone. Like mum said, he's someone full of secrets and yes, he's not someone who would expose himself to anyone.
I had a closer look at Hakim today, and yeap, i do not find him attractive at all. Is this weird or is this just me ? LOL .
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