What comes after 2022

It's very rare for me to actually look and stare at someone and have thoughts and own conversation about him/her. But it's really different when it comes to Asyraf. This man, who is full of secrets, makes me so calm every time i look at him. While Azwan, he gives me shivers and butterflies.

Every time i look at Asyraf, it brings me a lot of thoughts. Too much that sometimes, it's just so sad to be just thinking. And that made me mentally tired.

Thoughts like, "Who will you be in the future?"
Thoughts like, "What exactly are you thinking about now?"
Thoughts like, "Have you been fine today?"
Thoughts like, "How could i ever figure you out?"
Thoughts like, "Am i too boring to even talk to?"
Thoughts like, "Are you happy?"
Thoughts like, "How are you feeling right now?"
Thoughts like, "Will we ever have a decent conversation?"
Thoughts like, "Will I ever be treated nicely, like a lady, by you?"

Well, there's more, and every time i look at him, some new questions and conversation were up in my head.

But on Friday, When i saw him talking to my Dee, i just had one question,

"Was i not worth your time for you to only have short conversations with me but have long conversations non-stop, with her?"

Sadly, i can't stop thinking about that.