What comes after 2022

I'm so young and confused. I'm really not in a good mood now. Azwan, Asyraf. I don't know. I'm tired of my own feelings. Tired of my own mental torture. Tired of my own emotion torture. And this Studio IG problems, ain't helping me at all man. It just adds up to my unhappiness. I deserve this maybe? I deserve to be hurt maube? But i don't know why. Why. And yeah, I just want to run away. Let me run away please. I really have no mood today. Was supposed to be doing my favourite station today, East Lodge. But today, Juraimi is not working which only means that Azwan is working. I don't want to see Azwan's face. To see him upset because of another girl, it hurts me so much. Yes i'm trying to keep my mind occupied. I'm trying my best to accept the fact that we are just good friends. Just good friends. But at the same time, i'm disturbed about Asyraf. Wtf is wrong with me. Really.. I just couldn't understand my own heart..