What comes after 2022

When i think back about life, yes sometimes i would like to go on dates, be loved, have a boyfriend, husband, get married bla bla bla. But when i think again, i'm having 2nd thoughts. Before i even began that, i have a bigger responsibility. I want to take are of them as how they've taken care of me. I appreciate every single effort that they've put it to take care of me throughout these years. I want to repay them first before anything happens to them, before i start forgetting them. No, i don't want to forget them, but i'm afraid Allah would change my path from who i am right now to some rebelious daughter in the future well i'm not sure and i hope not. Ya Allah, allow me to take care of them before i start a life with a person called "husband" . Even if i have to take care of them when i get married, allow my husband to be someone who would allow me to care for them.