What comes after 2022

Most of the time i felt as if i wanted to let go and give up on this. But every time i wanted to, something will surely cropped up. Like how She will do something that makes you upset. And you are all upset. It has to happen every moment i told myself that i want to let you go. It has to happen every time i want to disappear. Why does this have to happen always? I have a weak heart and a soft one too. So every time you get upset because of her, and it falls during the period where i wanted to let go, that's when i took my step back again to where i am to help you up. I'm always worried that there will be no on there to hold on to you and that there is no one there to help you up. Maybe that's the reason why i have been holding on. I didn't want you to go on and hold on to things alone and all bottled up. Because i know that the reason you turned out that way is because most of the time you bottled up all your feelings inside and you never told anyone about it. I also know that there is no one there to stand with you during your hard times and that is hard for you.

MFBML, my dear, do you know how hard it is for me to keep stepping forward trying to leave you but ended up having to take that step back to pick you up? I'm just so worried for you that i couldn't bring myself to leave you. Hais.