What comes after 2022

Sometimes i wonder why do you love her so much. You told me "the way she makes me happy when she's around" and i wanted to ask, right now she's making you sad, so why can't you still forget her? It's amazing how a guy could love so much and a girl could not see his love. And when some other girl appreciate his presence, all he did was hurt her so much that it actually affects how she thinks and how she roll. It's a cycle of a lot of things in life. Why am i here in the first place? Why Allah? Why did you send me to him just so that i could love him as much as i am loving him right now and the fact that i hurt myself for being this way? And i'm always lying about not crying and hiding my tears behind my smile. Some times i wonder if you ever noticed. If i were to really be gone for awhile, would you miss me? Would you miss my presence? I don't know MFBML. I don't know why am i here. I don't know what to do. I want to be here for you. I know i have to do something. But i just don't know what.