What comes after 2022

Some times i wish i had siblings. Some times i wish i was boy. It's so pathetic to live my life. I feel so lousy all the time. All i have been doing it staying at home. While other teenagers gets to go out and have fun, run around and enjoy life, i'm stuck at home. Even if i were to go out, it will be with my parents. I'm no different from a prisoner who needs the cops to be around me all the time. I'm jailed at home. I have to report everthing. Why Allah? Why did you write my life this way? I woke up this morning thankful that you kept me alive, but i can't help but to feel sad about my life. Why isn't my life like everyone else? Some times i wish i wasnt the only child. My only child life is not what like everyone else thinks. I do not get whatever i want. I do not get to go wherever i want. I was never pampered because i lived mu life in sadness, being lonely and afraid to tell my parents that i want to go out. Because even i do say i want to go out, there's certain things i need to think of, where exactly? What time exactly? What's the ending time exactly? WHY IS MY LIFE SO PATHETIC?!?!?! Why? While some others cried because they broke up, the only thing i cried for is my life! MY LIFE! I live my life like a prisoner. When i go out, i can only go to a place! A PLACE AT A TIME ONLY! Where's te adventure? You know why i'm soo bloody hell fat?!?! Because i do nor get to go for adventure! Because all the two of you did was kept me in the house! Yea, exercise machine! You bought all that for me. But hey, me alone at home. DO YOU KNOW HOW EMPTY IT FEELS?!?! DO YOU KNOW HOW BORING IT IS?!?!? HAVE YOU TWO NOT BEEN YOUNG BEFORE?!?!? I've got a young blood okay and i feel lousy that this young blood doesn't get to go anywhere she wants. This young blood always cry for being too lonely. There's also a reason why i always stayed late in school or at work. Because there's many people around me and not only myself. I get to laugh with others. And the reason why i'm too loud most of the time is because i have too much to say, i'm always too excited when i get to talk to people. It's not fair. My life is never fair.