What comes after 2022

I need to let this out.

Seriously.

Really i do.

I've just read two blogs of two FRIENDS.

Spell it out,

F R I E N D S

Yea, and BOTH, actually wrote about having friends who won't stick long.

Now i just wanna say this.

This truly come from my heart.

Really.

NO DOUBT.

I just have to let it out.

I ain't seeking for any attention.

But i just want to say it.

It doesn't matter if nobody cares.

I know no one cares.

So i just want to write.

I hate to bottle things up.

And here i go..

I get really upset.

Let me spell it for you,

U P S E T

Yea i mean upset.

I'm upset when i read their blog about having friends who never sticks. Or about having friends who go away soon or later. Or about not wanting to go on and find new friend cause there's no point of having new ones when they go away.

DON'T they REALISE that i'm always here?

Oh wait, cummon nobody even cares if i'm around.

Serious shyte problem eh aku.

Whatever.

I've always been caring for my friends.

I have no siblings, so i do treat my friends like one. Hello, i'm a loner? YES! And i do stick to MY FRIENDS. I never go away. BUT they do. They left me all alone and go having new friends. WHEN I ? I'm always sitting in a corner waiting for them to come back.

I'm always there whenever they need someone. And yet? They talked about FRIENDS back stabbing them. FRIENDS leaving them! I am the one who should say that! NOT THEM! What do they precisely know about being left alone? I'm alone. ALWAYS alone. A LONER. When i don't have one of my friends, where can i go? NO WHERE. At least for SOME PEOPLE, they have their PIT PEOPLE. Or maybe some other internet friends. OH YES i do have internet friends. BUT I DON"T FIND THEM MY TRUE FRENDS!!! Friends who i stick with is those who i consider TRUE FRIENDS.

But still, why doesn't anybody see me as their true friend? As their loyal friend? Everyone left me everytime they have new friend. But when there's nothing called NEW, they came back to me.

There was a time, I called SWEET REVENGE. I really love that moment. When THEY realise i'm no longer the kind one.

I really like that moment. I wasn't acting. I was expressing who i am. I was showing to them what they've been doing to me. Yes. I may be evil sometime. But i still know whats good and whats not. I know how much it hurts them when i did that. And so now i'm back.

But hey, what's the point? There is no absolute point of me being my old GOOD self. Maybe i'm born naive. I do stick. But people won't and when i turn the other way around, it breaks my heart when people realised it. I'm soft hearted yes i admit.

I just wish one day i'll wake up having a better day out.

But it's only a wish.

It never will happen.

But to those FRIENDS i have who wrote those things on your blogs.

Tho you guys won't be reading this,

I just would like to stay,

I have no other friends.

Yes i don't.

And i only stick to you people.

And that's me.

Yes i have a lot of friends and people who know out there.

But i stick to only, my good, trusty, friends.

I'M DONE!