What comes after 2022

Like the smiley, that is how my face is right now.
My cheeks are red with anger.

I bite my lips, not wanting to cry.

To that person i called love,

I wanted to say it to you. But i have no guts to know your reaction. I'd rather say it hear. And let you read what i felt. I wanted to say that my heart hurts so much the moment i know the truth. I don't know why i still carry on loving you when i know it just hurt me every single day. No girl would like to share a guys love. Yes people might say that love SHOULD BE SELFISH. But i can't bring myself to be a selfish person in love. I tried to hide my fear of losing you. I tried to smile. Sometimes i just wanted to be selfish. But i cant't. I din't know that you were attached to HER when i started to like you. We knew each other a year and a half ago. You said you've loved me long before today. But i doubt. But soon, my heart melted away. Thanks to the heat of love you gave. My heart sank and was about to break when i saw HER friendster profile. It was kind of heart breaking. I asked you, not wanting to believe what i saw, though it was a clear cut. youdin't admit. I took the chance when you were away for your thailand trip. I asked her myself. And yes. I cried a sea of tears. Do you know how heart breaking it was? IT WAS MUCH MORE WORST THAN HAVING A ONE SIDED LOVE. IT WAS WORST THAN BEING DITCHED BY YOUR LOVED ONES. IT WAS WORST THAN BREAKING UP WITH THE PERSON YOU TRULY LOVE. IT WAS CRUEL. The fact that you were someone else's hurt me too much. I don't steal. I'm not a stealer. I tried to keep myself away from you. But i can't stop loving you. Knowing my weakness you pulled me back into your arms. It hurts. It truly does. I just don't understand why you can't see my suffering. Yes i am being selfish by saying, I DO NOT WANT TO SHARE YOU LOVE. But, WHO DOES? I may sound pathetic. But, I AIN'T A BEGGER OF LOVE. If only you would understand. I've been hiding whats eating me up inside. And my happiness is slowy going down the drain. I felt like as if im a jinx in love. I really do feel like it. It does hurt me seeing other people having THEIR ONLY ONE. It does hurt when i saw people being their loves ONLY ONE. It hurts. But i still love you. I ain't begging for sympathy. I ain't begging for your love. Worst, i ain't begging for you to break up with HER. I just want you to know how i felt. Cause i can't hold it any longer. I can't. I felt as if i was betrayed. I felt a knife stabing my heart from the front! NOT FROM THE BACK. Cause i can see the person stabbing me. The person hurting me. I just can take it no more. But i still love you.

And as for your PM in msn my love,

If that hurts, maybe you should think about what you did that hurt other people. What some other people that loved you, that you have hurt. I ain't going to specifically say me, cause maybe there were many other girls, that went thru what i had. So think back what you did to your other lovers. Cause what goes around comes around. There is a purpose for the existance of that quote. And love, do you remember? I've warned you before about getting hurt by your loved ones? I just want you to think about it.

And last, I do love you.

Maybe one day i'll move on.

I will tell you, if i already moved on.

And if you never hear a word about me moving on,

It means,
I still love you.