I give up - 28.02.2021

Remember my young self who dont really know what giving up is all about?

I don't anymore. I don't remember how it felt like not to give up. Cause all I know now is I give up. I give up on so many things. My job, my life, my family, my heart.

I like mr antagonist. But I give up. His heart, it is way too hard. I don't even know if I am made to break his walls down. I want to keep trying. But at the same time, I want to give up too. I don't have the same strength and energy as I had when I was 21. I don't know what i'm doing anymore. Life is just.. meh right now. I just...... i just don't know anymore. 

I just want to sleep. I want to snooze off. I don't wanna care. I want to give up.